I'd like to, not only explain my recent behavior, but also appology for a lot of words i said, expressions i added and for the way i acted.
First of all, let me tell you a bit about myself. I have a big mouth, a bad temper and a rebell mind. I am used to say what i think, right in the moment of thinking it, to reply as soon as possible and not to give a damn what people think of me.
In society, i always ha a lot of respect people for standing behind their principles, consequently. One of mine is, never to remain quiet, if somebody adds his oppinion about my deeds, words or personality, which imho does not fit to myself.
Though, i have a responsibility as a GM and staff member and every word i say/write can be used not only against myself, but the whole Illarion staff. So in case that i say something wrong, or just miss the glint of respect in my choice of vocabulary, its not only turn shadows on myself, but of the whole staff.
Plus: I hurt people's feelings, even though i just want to clear up facts, strictly business, like i appearantly hurted lrmy's
I'd like to apology for that. To himself, to my fellow staff members, to every one who felt offended or even hurt by my words, for acting inmature, mean, unresponsible and stubbornly stupid.
For the reasons of my actions?
Was it because i hate the temple? Certainly not.
Was it because i am temporarly not in the best psychic state? Maybe for some part.
Was it because i were constantly awake for 36+ hours at that moment? Yeah, that might be a factor, too.
Was it because i was listening to 2pac's most aggessive songs for 24+ hours? Maybe
The actual trigger was, i felt offended and blamed to be corrupt, which i swear to be not. My intention was to lay emphasis on that, but it escalated in to flaming, insulting and being inmature and got worse and worse because i was stubborn.
I even treated friends and staff fellows unfair and insulting aswell.
For that i hereby add my apologies once more to everyone.
Noradur
P.S. (i urgently request not to comment this P.S. here, ask me on msn if you have question about it.): The quest still will take place, and please believe me, its fair.
