To put it in a nutshell, I think I've really spent far, far, and faaar too much time on this game for what little I really should have. I've been addicted to it for a little over 3 years now, and it has become a kind of crack cocaine. Which, essentially, is just a little sickening.
At any rate, there's also the fact that I'm heading off to university next year, and a few weeks ago, I finally had enough practical sense in my head to decide that Illarion was something that I do NOT want to pack in my luggage and take with me to Vanderbilt. Sorry, but it would really come to no good end. I think I've finally admitted to myself that Illarion has contributed to too many bad moods, bad grades, and bad progress for my RL life in the last 3-ish years. I'm determined to at least try to redeem myself for all of that when I start anew, in about 2 weeks. Illarion is eating too much of my time and focus now, and I am determined to make that stop.
Honestly, I'm not really sick of the game itself. I love the progress it's come through almost week after week, and I love watching it happen. I loved being a GM and trying to help however I could. As much as I hate many chars and many plots throughout
, the ones that I have treasured are no small amusements. I think one of my problems was that I did love Illarion so much. It started going downhill when playing an online game became a requirement to maintain two or even more lives at the same time. My real life is my priority. I started losing that focus somewhere early in those 3 years. This should not be happening.As with too many of my posts, I could really spew on forever on the subject of Absolutely Nothing and Etc. , so I want to just finish up with the last salutes from the stands of my characters. Thus after so many years of stubborn refusal to reveal characters, whether of my own or others, here they are =) . More or less in order of creation.
Delakaniam: Well, you all should know (or know of, at least) this one. My first char ever, which I stuck with for my entire time here. Tzi Hahasus is De'am's twin, and the PO Tzi is who introduced me to Illa. And that's how I first came to be here.
Mirenka: My mursterious wittle elfess who was almost literally beaten and ridiculed on long-term into her extreme shyness. But no one ingame ever bothered knowing her long enough to know any of that, though =D . She also had cursed eyes that changed hue in emotional accordance. I thought about ditching that idea several times, actually, but somehow kept with it.
Benji Goppelfrog: Benji was a blind halfling. He spoke in what was probably a measly attempt at a Scottish accent
. But he was a cheerful char to play.Shlinks: He's the only char I ever deleted -- I actually stuck with nearly the same 5 chars in my entire time here. Anyway, Shlinks was a lizard who thought he was a dog. Usually endless amusement. But somehow that char was extremely exhausting to play =D !
Sylveria: My young mute elfess, and probably the most known of my chars besides De'am. She was probably the best character concept I thought of. I think I will miss her the most. Sylveria probably unlocked the best RP in me the most frequently out of all my characters. There was something really fantastic about playing a char that was based entirely on #me actions alone, and the time spent playing this char is some of what I will miss most out of Illarion.
EDIT+: Dnoi Tarepo: I almost forgot about him. Anyone remember this golem? I played him for all of the quests that involved him. I think he started out as a human cronie for the pirate Gerard Cindata, but he and Ian were both turned into rock golems to protect Gerard, and were stuck that way after he was defeated. He and Ian were always extremely fun to play, though.
Szinshala: Szinshala is the female lizard that I basically deleted Shlinks' slot in order to create. I think it was because someone mentioned somewhere that there was a lack of female lizards, so it got me thinking
. Amusingly, she got pincushioned with arrows by an orcess on her second time ingame XD . At least I had some good RP during the few days that I went IG with her. I only created her just a month or two ago.Rinya: My GM char, naturally. On this note, I just want to apologize for anything that was misunderstood from me or seemed unfair or was otherwise royally screwed up in my time and role as a GM here. I really did try my best. It's not like I ever really earned any good GM points, but I had fun doing it, and I hope that at least some of you did, too. Please find a good, time-zone-fitting GM or two also, now that we're probably short of them, on the non-German side especially. And yes, I am/was the youngest GM, now that I'll actually tell you these things
. I became an official Illa GM during the week of my 17th birthday =P .So then. I might be IG a few moments in the next few days, but only as necessary, to close up any plot ends possible. I'll still be around by MSN, Skype, ICQ, e-mail, even IRC perhaps, etc. I'd even be curious to know how many of my chars you knew, or how =D . In either way, I wish you as the community good luck and... well.... self-control. Stop clawing and fighting with each other. Can't we all just get along
?Thank you so much for 3 horribly addicted.... but damn fun years. Take care, eat well, and get some actual sleep here and then. So long, and thanks for all the fish!
With regards,
~ De'am
but yea had lots of fun with three of your characters.
Wow you must be a really good RPer. I only wish I knew any of your characters. 
. ig oh well.
