Forgetting tommorow

[Olivia_Gales]

A small notebook lies strewn among some other things in Emily Xahep's depot. Opening the cover in a neat cursive is written: Property of Emily Xahep. Under it, written in the same cursive is: A gift from Avareniah for her favorite student . The remainder of The notebook is wrtitten in a childish scrawl.

Avareniah told me to write about people first so i suppose that is what I will do. Today I met two wonderful people, Avareniah and Caitlin, and....a strange woman named Elmara. Avareniah was a lovely elfess with light brown hair, and the most beautiful green eyes I have ever seen. She was very nice to me, and she taught me the names of some flowers
Virgins weed
Desert sand capsule
and firnis blossom
The virgins weed reminded me of an angel. The yellow middle was like a bright halo, and the white petals were like wings. The desert sand capsule was bright and colorful, and was shaped like a little cup on a stick, and the firnis blossom was a bright pink flower that smelled just like summer days. I know summer day aren't supposed to have a smell, but there's no other way to describe the way it smelled.
Caitlin was a pretty woman with dark hair, and I think she was a teacher of healing, because I was watching her tell Avareniah and another elfess how to stitch wounds. I didn't really want them to notice me watching, because I was so shy, but I watched every little detail carefully. I think I might want to be like that someday. Someone who can fix things that hurt other people, that would be the most wonderful thing in the world. I think the most important thing I got from watching them was that the stitches must be very precise and firm, and the more stitches there are the smaller the scar will be. Elmara is hard to describe, the only thing I can say about her is that she has something against men.
The very last thing Avareniah asked me to write about was kicking down the wall. Earlier Avareniah asked me how I remembered the name of the night angels blossom when I didn't know what the others were. Well....when i think about things it's like looking at a painting, and having everything but me blocked out. I look around, trying to find my way through the darkness, and suddenly I hit a wall. I hit the barrier that is stopping me from knowing that, and I kick it down. Suddenly the painting has a sheep, or and acorn, or maybe even just a blade of grass, but it adds something to that blackness so i'm not completely alone.

Emily Xahep

[Olivia_Gales]

When I woke up today, I didn't know Avareniah, or Caitlin, or Elmara. I didn't even know my own mother. It's awfully sad to be told that everything you learn one day will be forgotten the next, but nonetheless I will write this down because Avareniah says it will help me. I met my mother today. At first I only knew her as Marie, because Avareniah told me her name, but I thought very hard, and I remembered enough. When I kicked down the wall the only thing I could see was me standing next to her, and saying "mom". It was so wonderful to discover something. It feels amazing to look at that black empty space, and see it has a bit of color. I also met Taylor today, he knew me before and I forgot I suppose, but he was awfully nice. He has long blue hair, and beautiful blue eyes, and he dresses like a fighter, with metal covers on his hands. He got in an argument with someone, because the man stole the flower he was trying to give me. I hope I can see them again, and be able to remember them, but I know it wont be the same only knowing them from what I read. Life is almost pointless without memories. It's like eating a cherry and having it leave that bitter taste in your mouth. I can have all the experiences on the paper, but they aren't the same, there will always be that bitterness and confusion surrounding me, and i'll never learn what it is like to truly live, because everyday will repeat.

Emily Xahep

[Olivia_Gales]

I went to my home today, because something bad was happening in trolls bane. I don't really know what was going on, and the parts I do, I want to forget. My home is called Varshikar. It's very pretty, and it's right next to te desert. While I was there momy gave me a ring. Inside it, the words with all my love, mom are inscribed. Something else happened today too though. This time I didn't only forget things, i forgot how to talk. It was so hard to learn again. i'm worried that one day i'll wake up, and wont remember anything at all.

[Olivia_Gales]

Not much happened to day, but I met a few people.
Fooser- he wants to eat me. stay as far away from his as possible, preferably by someone older than me.
Kevin- ......he's....himself....yes..himself
Alkurg- Alkurg is a very nice orc, who told me he would find someone to help me.

Something really funny happened today. There were three older men fighting with apples. I'll just call them, headband man, apple thrower, and child fighter. I wonder who was actually fighting for a good reason, it never occured to me to ask.

Mommy told me about something today. She said I had an aunt maj, but she died. I know that's a sad thing to write down, but I think it's important to know who my famly is.