i'm tired of this - why did i try

Darkend Blade · Post by **Darkend Blade** » Sat Jun 15, 2002 2:13 am

I tried so hard to be good, but i know my fate is fixed. Tis my destiny to be evil. I make myself known to you all. I am an evil one. Be it as you like or not. It still stands. Though it pains me to know that Morgaine Le Fay will not be happy. I love you with all my heart Morgaine, but i can't keep on being good like this. It's tearing me apart. The blood within me, is filled with evil deeds and thoughts. I suffer from being good. I can't take that anymore. I have to stop it. I have got to be myself. The dark one, darkend blade. Even though i'm evil morgaine, i still love you. I hope you won't leave me. I am one of my lords followers now, whom i dare not speak his name. Though i was always a follower, i come out as one now. I fear no creature nor player on this island. If you want me come get me. But know this, magic hurts me little and blades hit me not. But my blade, will be heavy within your armor as it cuts through. So either let me pass or i'll go right through you. Kind words from a kind person like me.
#me makes darkclouds around him and vanishes

Inioch Hope · Post by **Inioch Hope** » Sat Jun 15, 2002 7:29 am

This is really getting sad so many good people going evil. I thought you Darkened Blade would be one of the few who could change. I guess I was wrong, you are just like all the others giving in too easy to evil. Will anyone be able to fight this evil or are all that are tempted by evil so weak? I have never been tempted by evil but if I was I would not give in so easy. There is still Hope for you D.B. all you need is to grasp onto what you still have left.

Darkend Blade · Post by **Darkend Blade** » Sat Jun 15, 2002 7:41 am

Hope, your a good friend, don't get me wrong. But the shadow is where i lie. There is no turning back for me. My fate is sealed... My heart plunged with emptyness. My question is whats wrong with being evil. For every good there is a evil lurking close. We are everywhere. The only time you know where we are. Is when its almost too late. Many like to keep it secret bout them being evil. But i on the other hand. Have nothing to fear from anyone.

Inioch Hope · Post by **Inioch Hope** » Sat Jun 15, 2002 8:00 am

For every evil there is a good just like for every good there is an evil. there is good and evil within you. You just have to deside on which to be. You can take the path of good it may be very hard but nothing not impossible. If the path of darkness is the one you deside to take that is fine but please think it over agian.

If you do deside to take the path of good but are finding it hard to adapt to your dark impulses I know of many things that can help you

(Edited by Inioch Hope at 8:03 am on June 15, 2002)

Darkend Blade · Post by **Darkend Blade** » Sat Jun 15, 2002 8:07 am

How can i put away my love for war, my drive for blood, my loathing for battle. Tis all the things i get more of when evil. Tis the way of the world. Tis the way of me. What does good really give you? Evil has alot of benifits. For one. You don't think twice before slaughtering one who angers you. And two when being a warrior such as myself, you are needed everyday for the dark way. So why put my potential to waist? You know my words are true. The good in me was weak. I am evil. Though, thanks for caring. But i can't go back. Its my path i chose.

Inioch Hope · Post by **Inioch Hope** » Sat Jun 15, 2002 8:32 am

I accept your desition. I do not agree with it and i'm sure we could continue arguing forever but let us just leave it at this. Oh and one more think good is never weak.

Morgaine Le Fay · Post by **Morgaine Le Fay** » Mon Jun 17, 2002 8:10 pm

#me walks silently down the floor.
#me pins a wonderfully made pergament with beautifully worked letters on the shopwall.
#me gives the letters a last inspecting look and walks away unheard.

Far away from you

Here I stand, all by myself.
The key to your heart is lost,
evil would be your host.

These days memories squeeze my soul;
and love is my only guide and goal.

I try hard to find a way,
yours to be,
to your last day.

Fight i will these mists of sorrow,
won´t let go from you,
until the day after tomorrow.

The stars remind me of the once so sparkling eyes,
but this empty gaze - you placed me in the center of a maze.

I will follow you wherever you may go.
Breakes my heart, I love you no more.

Darkend Blade · Post by **Darkend Blade** » Tue Jun 18, 2002 9:04 pm

#me walks into the place with all the messages, sits down and reads the poem.
#me has tears falling from his eyes.
That was beautiful my love, i want you to know i can change in a heartbeat if you wished me to. My paths always get intertwined within itself. I place my sword before my eyes and see creature after creature fall. But when i place my sword against another's chest, i feel sarrow, as if my blade is afriad of being damned. My heart is twisting, turning, painfully, wondering what to do next. My heart fills with anger, but always more love for you Morgaine. I shall love you forever. The beast inside me, speaks of my true nature, but one thing i ask...why?
#me trails off to battle...

Morgaine Le Fay · Post by **Morgaine Le Fay** » Fri Jun 21, 2002 12:09 am

#me has read this message a long time ago.
#me was thinking for a long time how to answer.

My loving husband,

i do not wish to change you, nor your true nature - i love you because you are you. a heartbeat is only one single moment in life, but life itself is everlasting. there would be so many heartbeats from now you would have to spend to fight the beast within you. you would fight your true self - i cannot make you do that. love is sometimes blind, but always forgiving. be the one i love and i will forgive - the best i can.

#me smiles and walks away.

Likwid Air · Post by **Likwid Air** » Fri Jun 21, 2002 12:30 am

You are not evil Darkend Blade, and it would be a terrible day if you did become truly evil. Good is more powerful than evil and the evil within you should not be contained, release it from yourself, many days will it take to cleanse yourself but as long as you bear with you memories of Morgaine your love will keep you whole.

Sir Dart · Post by **Sir Dart** » Fri Jun 21, 2002 12:29 pm

No need to turn evil dad its me that needs to stop influencing you by being
sort of evil myself you just confused right now and you can't tell the difference
if you are good or evil don't worry there is a evil in all of us even it is a very
small evil its ok I know you won't turn evil it is me that needs to change
I think I have been sort of a bad rolemodel for halfings everywhere oh well
heheh

#me digs a hole and makes a grave and rest in a coffin

Darkend Blade · Post by **Darkend Blade** » Fri Jun 21, 2002 9:24 pm

Whats the diffrence if i was evil or good, i am still me no matter what. I thank thee for your comfort and all, but my path leads endlessly and tangled, where it will land, i havn't a clue, either me to my death, or me above death. Or perhaps me just being me again. Who knows. All i know is, i have to keep traveling, for a fear of stoping may trouble me and destroy me.