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I must take my leave from these lands for a while. Sorsha hasn't came back. I'm worried sick about her to the point that i've lost myself. I made enemies with a friend. He hates me now. And i myself am not too crazy about him either. If he reads this, you don't have to forgive me or accept this but... i'm sorry. And sorsha if you send me a message or anything saying your back, i'll return, my heart feels empty without you near me. I can't even look at myself anymore without feeling empty. I worry too much i guess. To all of those that was near me while i was really upset, i'm sorry for them hearing it. I'm way too confused or anything to do anything in this island thats good. If you hate me. Thats understandable. I'd hate myself. I know i'm just a beast now days. Slaughter me at will if it pleases you, if it'd make things better. And... even thought i really hate myself for saying this, if the gods wish to banish me, then i.. i wish them well and everyone else well. I wouldn't blame them for it. I've done some mean and evil things that i hate myself for, and why i can't stop doing it, i don't even know. I'm really sorry. Sorsha i love you, now and forever. I can only hope you'll forgive me in time. And if the gods show mercy, and you still want to be with me... then let me know, i'd really love if things where the way they were before.

I can't leave just yet, i have to find out more about Sorsha, i can't leave her. I wont leave her. I love her way too much. My every thought goes with her. I'm calmed down now. And if its ok with the gods i'd love to come back. I dont' know what got into me. But its over now. Thanks for putting up with me.

Durik, your to lovesick......get some rest....

Everythings back to normal, yes i missed her alot, and i love her alot, and i do trust her. She's back now, and my mind is back now, well it was back anyways today, i had a feeling she was coming back to me . Thank you all for putting up with the nonsense, and to those telling me a bunch of bull, i'd apreciate it if you didn't do that anymore, cuase i know she'd never hurt me.