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Emily Xahep pulls out a small book and a quill from her depot and rushes to the corner of elizas shop where no one can see her. She opens it up and looks down at the empty pages. She had once heard Olar talk about Rhi keeping a diary and she had thought it quite silly, but now she would do anything to get these thoughts out of her head. She had actually gotten the book a long time ago but had not known the use. Before she had known Spring was her mother Spring would come and see her almost every day. Sometimes she had brought toys and other times candys but one day she had given her an empty book. She had been puzzled as to why Spring would have given her such a pointless gift. She had sat there and looked at the empty pages pondering over them she had asked her "what is it for?" spring had just sat there with a smile on her face and calmly said, "it's for the voices". "What voices?" Emily had asked but spring had just shook her head " the voices in your head" she said calmly "the voices of right and wrong". "Sometimes when they are all jumbled up inside your head you can't tell them apart. When they are all mixed up it is easy to make mistakes and if the mistakes are bad enough they can ruin your life". Emily remembered looking up at Spring and seeing her face filled with sorrow and wanting to say someting so badly but not knowing how to put it in words. Emily opened the book. Dust flew from the pages and Emily thought about how long it had been since she had last opened it. She then took her quill and carefully began to write on the first page.

Dear diary. Lately some strange things have been happening. I started to hear these voices in my head and it made me think about what Spring had said, but I know these are different kinds of voices. At first they were just whispers. They would tell me to do different things but I just ignored them. Then they got louder and I started to worry. It made me tired to block them out but I didn't know what else to do. I was worried the voices would tell me to do bad things if I listened and it made me cautious everywhere I went, but I just tried to act more happy so no one would notice. Something strange hapened today though. When I was in Elizas shop talking with Ahadri and Will the voices started to scream my name. At first I thought someone was calling me but Ahadri and Will couldn't hear it so i figured out it was them again. The problem is they were too loud. It was almost impossible to block them out, and now Ahadri and Will know. I am worried I might be going crazy and I dont want anyone to know. Now both Ahadri and Will are worried about me. I know Ahadri wont tell anyone but Will is more likely to tell it to the whole world. I am so scared that mommy and daddy will find out, and if they do....what will they do? I am so scared they will not love me anymore. so scared.....

Emily Xahep

The next page is covered in sooty handprints and a small line of blood runs down the page.

I often do not like to show when I am scared. I look away, I walk off and pretend to be mad, I scowl and complain....but I truly did let everyone know I was scared today. The dragon came again. It flew through the skys lighting them up with it's fiery breath and filled our town with smoke. I told Farel I would not leave and that I didn't have to. I know mommy and daddy would have been mad but I wanted so badly to be there, to be respected for once, to be thought of as more than a child. My intention was just to stand bravely until it was over and to show them I wasn't scared (although I was) but instead I ended up crying and cowering behind Liles and Alkuurg. One stupid man began to attack the dragon and finally more people joined in. The dragon was to strong for them and even worse....he called in his kin. I felt so foolish for not leaving. Eventually one of the dragons kin came close by. I could feel his smoky breath singe the edge of my skin just barely. He was faster than I expected and he lunged at my body. I stuck out my hand in defense and he bit it. It began bleeding heavily. Though who am i to complain, At least I still have a hand. The Adults opened a portal and people began to flee. First I was sent to varshikkar then to Greenbriar. I was so dizzy from the smoke it all went by in a blur I just got back to Trollsbane and found it almost empty. One man said they were still out fighting the dragons. I am so scared for all the deaths that may happen.... the lives that may be lost I am not going to search for them because I don't want to be in their way but as I write this I fear for their lives. I do hope they will all live.

Emily Xahep

So much has happened in the last few days I know not where to start. Dravish came. i was standing in the shop with daddy and Alkuurg and this skeleton came in. He was horrifying, His feet burned holes into the floor. Daddy told me to hide by Mugush so I did not hear much, but the little bits and pieces I got had much to do with Salathe and something stolen. Caitlin stood up to him and I dont quite remember why but he left. Caitlin showed me a side of her that i'd never seen, and I respect that side of her with all my heart. She is brave and smart and kind. When I grow up I want to be just like her. The next day I learned how to fight mummies. The crypt didn't seem quite so scary this time and I was able to have fun with Alkuurg. Then today Dravish came again. I actually heard what he said this time but it didn't make much sense to me, he was babbling on about stupid people I think. What happened next was pretty scary. Pendar attacked Dravish and ended up getting really hurt some more people joined in to help but I dont know if Dravish is dead.....after all he wansn't alive in the first place

There is a section of notes at the bottom of the page. Most of them are scribbled out but there are a few words you can clearly make out.
It goes something like this: Morty....Alaine and Damien......the path.....what did she?.....why did she die?.....If Morty died of a disease it could be floating around....if she didn't....what's going on?

The next page is scrawled messily it seems like the writer was very angry.
I was trying to get that stupid man to go away that's all....he was bothering Capus. I thought I was helping him out....the stupid man was bad! He was talking about Drahken and I just wanted him to go away! I was talking with Jeremy, I said "he's probably embarrased to have a girl trting to help him". Capus overheard me, at first he said he was embarassed because people were telling him he would never be a fighter, but then he said, "what i'm also embarassed about Is how you treat me like a toy. You play with me until ready to put me in the chest and walk off" I just gaped. What had I ever done to Capus? I had always been his friend, I had gone and looked for him when he was missing, I had even made Liles look. I was trying my best to get the grain, I was so happy he was back. Capus, since you've obviously taken to READING MY DIARY maybe you should answer this: What have I done wrong?

The page is written with slightly messier handwriting then usual.
I'm hopeless......in fact, i'm eyeless. I feel more useless then I've ever felt. I do not want to say how I lost my eye for fear someone might read this, but I can say that it makes me question myself and my sanity quite more than ever before. If Cappy still wants to runaway I will do it with him, otherwise I will runaway by myself. For now I am nothing more than a burden to the people around me. That's what i am, a stupid, crippled, burden. I also realized today something else I have done wrong. Every time I try to stop a fight I make it worse. I am so foolish, how could I not see this all along. On top of all that something is up with Rhi. She left bandaging my eye and ran off. I bandaged it myself though somewhat sloppily. At least no one has to see my eye anymore....I wonder, will anyone even care when I leave? It pains me t think that but in a way it would relieve me if it's true, because then I would know that no one would worry while I was gone

Emily Xahep

Every page with the name Capus on it has been scribbled out...

The following page is written very carefully....
I don't know what to do....I told Alica I didn't mind, but know they've run away? I didn't mean for her to take him away from me, to take away my friend. If he would leave me like this he must truly hate me.....if that is the case then I will not search for him, instead.....I will go on a journey of my own. Maybe when I am in solitude I will be able to understand more why he has left. Maybe I will be able to clear my mind for long enough to set my it straight I will leave with no warning, that way no one will stop me. I'm thinking....somewhere peaceful, somewhere where I can live without worries or fears........ Emily Xahep

Emily.. I wish we could meet some time. I would like to help you plotting that revenge. I am mad at Capus.. He made me go with him and when i was asleep he dissapeared. Please contact me.
"Alica"