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Jeremy walks quietly upto the wall, takes a deep breath, looks around slowly. He places a parchment on the wall and walks away quickly.
The note is written in small untidy writing. In some passages the writing is very shakey and in several small patches the ink has run as if wetted.

To all my friends who, though I have only known you a short while, I feel I owe a great debt. Mia said something to me yesterday which made me think long and hard about myself. She said I was "good". I do not know if this is true now and probably was not in the past. Anyway, I will tell you my story as best I can and you can judge for yourselves. I will not hold anything against anyone and will respect all opinions, good or bad.

No apology neccessary at all.

I try hard to judge folks on their actions that I observe and what they do with their life now, not the past. I f they truely are sincere and want to change they can with a little help.

Some folks dont want to change and others do not.
The key is as to the how's and the why's.


I always give things to the new folks and try to help them as best I can because many come here the way you did. Hiding, running or searching. Jumping boats or wandering overland it matters not.

That is why Doc Burlow and myself do what we do.

New starts and new beginnings can be hard to find.

We beleive in giving folks at least a chance to try for a new and better life.


And in Trollsbane somtimes it can be very hard when you are a stranger.

Mia

Cannot ignore the past of a person Mia. Past shows everything of a person.

The past is what explains and describes a person. What they do now, can and is most likely lies. Although past, is never a lie.

-Kasume-

Ignoring a persons past and forgiving a persons past who wishes to amend and start anew, are two entirely different things Kasume.

Mia

Thoughts and opinions about a person are still brewed on their past.
Whether you try or not.
No one can start new.

-Kasume-

Kasume wrote:Cannot ignore the past of a person Mia. Past shows everything of a person.

The past is what explains and describes a person. What they do now, can and is most likely lies. Although past, is never a lie.

-Kasume-

Once the present will become past - and then this past is the truth, isn't it?

Correct.

-Kasume-

So....it is totally impossible for anyone to ever change?
A child who steals an apple will become a thief?
The child who pulls the wings off flies will grow up cruel and sadistic?
The stupid person is destined only to wield a sword and can never learn?
I dont think so. What a sad place the world would be if that were so.

Yes Jeremy I agree.

Mia

You cannot change without a past.
You cannot simply put aside someone's past. It was what makes them.

-Kasume-

In life there is only one guarantee .

Everything is in constant change.


Mia

I don't see how that has anything to do with anything.

-Kasume-

Elminister wrote: Once the present will become past - and then this past is the truth, isn't it?

Bravo, sir! Kasume didn't yet realize that he had been put to a dead-end.

Lies and truth have nothing to do with present or past. You either do things sincerely or you don't. Doesn't matter when.

Besides my point. I did not say that.

-Kasume-

Kasume,
Anyone can change.....even you. My past is just that...past. Over. Done.
Now I look to the future. While I am scared of returning to the way I was I will try to improve myself and be better than what I was before.

You cannot force those in their minds about how they should make their assumptions of you.
If the assumption is bad, do not fuss.

-Kasume-

While looking through the messages on the board Jeremy finds his old notice.

"Still not sure that was such a good idea....." he says to himself

He takes the paper down and is about to rip it up when he stops. He seems lost in thought for a moment.

"But what of my new friends? Dont they have a right to know too? And all those I have yet to meet. Alaine, Zarine, Boka....have you read this yet? Do you already know? I hope so. Then it is okay but if not you have a right to know."

Jeremy pauses for a moment lost in deep thought. A decision made he puts the paper back on the wall and tacks it in place. He turns, hesitates for a moment then shrugs and walks away.

The words "come what may" linger in the air a moment as he walks away.

Alaine saw a paper on the wall. It was signed by jeremy.
After reading it she said:
"So this is your truth. When I met you you wouldn`t tell me."
She smiles warmly
"You are my best friend, now and forever."

You were honest from the start, hobbit. Since I know you I know this story.
And you sould not mind. We live in the present.
You are surely not the only one to have a shadow in your past.
But today, when I look at you, I can only see light and joy.
Do not worry, friend.

- Chak

Jeremy, I don't care what you have done in the past. The past shgould only impact those involved. Anyone you meet after that should judge you on what you've done since you've met them, not before. You have been a wonderful friend to me, and others. You're very giving, like there isn't a speck left of your past thievery. If not for your help I wouldn't be as far as I am now, and I am in debt to you.

unsigned

You slew those who ment you harm. I see no dis-honour in this. If one does not stand his ground, he shall become the doormat for all those who walk his path.

Ari§teaus
Lord of Varshikar

Written in silvery elven script on a dark green leaf, are these words:

"One who has let the old self die away, is surely reborn a new person."

The leaf has been borne on the winds, but it catches the eye even as it flutters away.